Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I am not doing well today. Very depressed. Very tearful. Miss him. I cant understand how deep my own grief is. Breathing is complex. Why?

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  1. Is there a counselor or somebody you can talk to? Maybe someone from hospice? You are so young to be going through this, I wish I could help.

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  2. The problem with grief is that it doesn't make sense, and it doesn't have a linear progression. It's like riding a roller coaster blindfolded. (Ever been to Space Mountain? Damn thing made me throw up.) And roller coasters have that safety bar across your lap that feels like it's not working at all, and you're always on the verge of falling out. But it IS helping, because it gives you something to cling to. Keep hanging tight to the safety bar (your mom, your cats, television, this blog, a counselor, your heartbeat) until the ride evens out. It will. I promise.

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  3. You are not suffering only grief. You are also suffering from "Post Traumatic Stress". You have been holding on so strongly for Wash these past few years, keeping your own feelings on hold. It is crushing when it all comes to the surface.

    Sending a prayer for peace.

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