Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Cannot erase our love

Small Photo break today.

I see these Post-It notes he left every day. I see them, read them, and remind myself of his words often.

I have been feeling hurt, angry, and rage filled lately at the opinion of some who by all seeming means, are literally trying to erase me from my husband's life.
Erase what we had.
What he did for me, what I did for him.
Erase the last years of his life.
Erase his happy smiles.

I am angry, because to me, Wash's love for me was just so obvious. Hopefully as my love was to him.
Clear and ever present.
He was the best thing to happen to me, and often said I was the same to him.
That cannot be taken away.

Love find ways to stay, even if the person who loved is no longer around.
His words are. His message. His intent.
His love.


"Future me:
Be excellent to Tashi Today!
Past me"

"Is it possible for me to love my wife... more than I do?
I do hope so."

"Tashi, you deserve far more than what I have to offer. But I'll give you what I can for as long as I can.
Because I love you.


  1. This might be the single most romantic/sweet thing I've ever seen in my life. Also, unrelated, but I wanted to share- every time I read one of your posts I can't help but think you are one strong lady and I hope you know it.

  2. These notes are really neat and telling of Wash's love for you.

    So sorry about the folks who are trying to erase your history together, anyone would be rage filled!

  3. When I read (Above) that there are some who are literally trying to erase you FROM Wash's life, Tashi............ well, my chest (no kidding) actually started to hurt!!

    Jack and I----(and we've now been married for *38 years*)----simply cannot BELIEVE that anyone on EARTH would (have the absolute AUDACITY to) even want to ~ E.R.A.S.E. ~ your & Wash's truly *oceanless* love for each other!! You will have your love for Wash F.O.R.E.V.E.R.

    As you've written here on your blog, I have discussed your case............ (i.e., either person-to-person; or over the phone)............ with Family members and friends in #3 states; and EVERY single person, young AND old~~bar none~~has been genuinely ~ *S.*T.*U.*N.*N.*E.*D.* ~ at the OBVIOUS level of your & Wash's deep, abiding love that you had/have for each other. (And, to be frank, more than a few of those same folks were also actually quite e.n.v.i.o.u.s., too, of the very, very rare type of love that you & Wash shared!!)

    I will never, (i.e., in the rest of my natural lifetime!!), be able to listen to Rex Harrison sing, "I've Grown Accustomed to Her Face" from the movie "My Fair Lady," WITHOUT thinking of you & Wash............ particularly when Rex Harrison sings these specific words about Eliza Doolittle (played by Audrey Hepburn):

    "Her smiles, her frowns,
    Her ups, her downs
    Are second nature to me now;
    Like breathing out and breathing in."

    "Her joys, her woes,
    Her highs, her lows,
    Are second nature to me now;
    Like breathing out and breathing in."

    Source (to cut-and-paste):

    You & Wash............ *breathed* each other............ "out and in." And NOW there are some who want to ERASE you from Wash's life??!!

    GIVE. ~ ME. ~ A. ~ BREAK.!!

  4. *Wide eyes, mouth working like a landed fish*

    I... may have to mark this on my calendar. I'm almost never at a complete loss for words. Erase you? Who dares?

    You absolutely deserved him, Tashi. And Wash absolutely deserved you. I mean that in the best of all possible ways. Take it from one who never found it - we are ALL deserving of true love, and you were so blessed to find it so young. And moving forward is one thing, but erasing you from his life? Never.

  5. I just, I can't. Words fail me. How can someone want to be so cruel? I just, I just don't understand at all. It's making me weep just to try to think about it. I would lose it if someone did that to me and my relationship. How can they erase you? YOU are such a huge part of Wash, always were and always will be. Just know that Wash would definitely NEVER want you erased or discredited in any way what so ever. I'm so sorry. This just makes me so mad, sad, and hurt FOR you.

  6. Just amazing those post-it notes.