I've decided after waking up sore (again, with both cats sleeping ON me) to put off more cleaning today. I don't think it's good physically or emotionally for me today.
I need a day just to rest, to not have to do things "for" Wash still (like paperwork).
I'm listening to bagpipes this morning and thinking of him.
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What a lovely painting. It's nice to have beautiful things around to look at.
ReplyDeleteHaving painted two winter scenes myself in the ancient days (haha!!), I remember what some of the first, very simple and unrefined paint-by-numbers kits were like; and MY two paintings didn't even *r.e.m.o.t.e.l.y.* look THIS nice!! In fact, when I enlarged your photograph (Above), I honestly thought to myself, "Wait a minute!! This really doesn't LOOK like a paint-by-numbers painting at all, because the coloration, composition, and depth look WAY-too-'free-hand'............ i.e., so this immediate-past Friday, I probably simply MISREAD what Tashi wrote about completing a kit!!"
ReplyDeleteIf you've ever stood right next to a tall stand of bamboo, under the blue sky of October, with the wind blowing through the emerald green canes/leaves, it's such an amazing............ ("PROTECTED," if you will)............ feeling; and that's why I think Wash would be PROTECTIVELY-happy that you painted this *lovely* scene, Tashi.
And this from ProFlowers.com, too: "According to Feng Shui masters, wherever bamboo is placed, good fortune is sure to follow. It's a traditional symbol of happiness, wealth and health in Asian cultures." Although I'm not sure whether your brother Yoshi ~ (in your March 22, 2012, post) ~ your sister-in-law, and your nephew, who live south of Tokyo, follow any traditional Asian culture or not, but if they do............ they'll also just *l.o.v.e.* your painting, too!!
Scr*w cleaning, scr*w everything you don't feel like doing.
ReplyDeleteLaugh, cry, think of him, think of yourself, think of butterflies or gawddang nachos- this is YOU. This is you in the darkest time of your life, and living up to expectations is simply not an option right now- whatever makes you feel comfortable is the right thing to do.
Nice job on the painting! You seem to be doing the right things& making the right choices right now. You have to feed your soul, and you have to move at your own pace. I worry you'll try to go too quickly & that may lead to regret later. This is absolutely the time to be completely selfish and self-indulgent, Tashi. Nobody will begrudge you. If they do, you send 'em my way!
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing artist. It is very good that you have so many artistic and musical outlets to help you through this difficult time. <3 Much love, Tashi.
ReplyDeleteThat's a beautiful painting, Tashi. I'm glad you're doing something for yourself. That's what you should be doing now.
ReplyDeletePlease take care. There are a lot of people in the world ready to help carry you.