Monday, April 9, 2012

I'm spending as much time as I can today with Wash. MY Wash.
His personality is back and bold today, he seems to be better rested and in a better mood. He is joking, and mature, and able to really speak today.

I'm beyond happy. I've missed my husband so much.
I have no idea how long this will last; will he still be here after his nap? Tonight? When he wakes tomorrow?

So, I'm trying to just stay in the moment. He is happy watching "RuPaul's Drag Race" and "Pineapple Express" right now. He's laughing even a little.

We're also playing "Fetch" with Leto this am.

Brain cancer sucks ass. It has stolen so much.
I feel like in this moment today at least, I have the person who loves ME is back.

For a while, we just held hands.


  1. I stumbled upon your blog today and I think it was for a reason. You are such a strong woman. Words can't even begin to express how much I admire what you are dealing with and the truth of your blog. You're amazing. I am praying with all my might for peace and comfort for you and Wash.

  2. God damn you make me cry every time I'm able to come here. My dad became a quad from metastatic bladder cancer that took hold in his spine.and died a brutal death, years long. Your blog brings me back there, and also makes me project-how could I ever live without my wife?

    You are so amazing, both of you. I wish I had something wise or inspiring to say, but I just don't. But I have much love for you, dear strangers.

  3. I'm so glad to hear that YOUR Wash is back, even if it's just for the time being. Take advantage of every second you have with him like this and treasure it forever.