I am beyond stressed and angry and frustrated these days. Dealing with our insurance and trying to get some-any-benefits right now is just draining me. I love getting to the point where I have to go "Co-pays/non-insured medication or gas and car insurance?"
Sample of my day; 66 miles driven so far and this;
One of Wash's (new) doctors says, "Where do you want to see yourself in 3 months?"
Wash, "I would just like to be alive in 8 weeks! I just want to be able to talk about my funeral with my family. I want them to know this is serious..."
Fun times my life. Fun times.
I'll post details later, cause there is nothing like being impoverished to make you open up your life in the off-chance of hope it might do some good. Anyone out there who wants to "adopt" a bill for us?
Here's a very quickly done and basic month for us... the math is quite scary, eh?
Food Stamp allocation/month $238.00 (This was just lowered as of Jan 2011- thanks budget cuts!)
Power/heat $70 (winter average) to $300 (summer)
Mobile (primary) phone $65 (taxes move this by $2-4 per month)
Groceries $350-400 month (Chemo means Wash has to eat certain foods)
Gas and Car insurance (no maintaining counted) $140-180 month
Wash's and my medical co-pays and non-insurance covered medication $400-500 month
Sundries (hygiene items, clothes, cat food, stamps) $50-100 month
So, I'll do the math for you; we take in just over $1000/month in "benefits" and to die living the most basic life with almost no outside entertainment (we have Netflix. We don't "go out" anywhere that's not free) costs at minimum $2041.00
Per month. That's more than a thousand dollar gap to figure out how to close every month. On top of every other worry about Wash I may have.
It could certainly be worse. That's still a metric shitton of stress on not even 25 year old me.
So.... anyone want to "adopt" a bill to pay for us?
Any Santas out there, kind hearted folk, well off and healthy... Robin Hood?
To not leave this off as a really horrid down post, I am happy that my mum will finally get to meet her first grandson (eldest bro's) in March. She's very excited and so am I. I'm recording some videos and books for him to be able to hear our voices too, as I hope to meet him someday too.
He just turned 2. His cheeks are so gorram edible it's envious. Happy thought of the day, a grandma getting to meet her grandkid for the first time. That's pretty special.