I'll get into it more later, too many doc's to visit today. I feel like shit.
I am beyond sad. I feel almost like a shell.
I worry that the marriage is just in name now. He's not himself. He hasn't been for a while.
My mum commented on it the other day. He can seem "Wash"for a few hours, but it rarely seems to last a whole day anymore.
I don't feel like a "wife".
I feel like a servant. Always on call. Worked for 23 months now with no "after work", no "vacation/holiday", no "respite time". Occasionally (few times a year) I might get 2-4 hours without having to care for Wash.
He's not treating me like a wife, or most days now even like a friend.
I'm tired and upset.
My husband was my best friend.
And now I feel so gorram alone.