really upset- stuck at home on bedrest still while my baby is alone getting scanned. Being on speakerphone is not good enough at all- but I can't rip my incisions again or go back to the hospital- might not come out. I just want to be holding his hand today- I KNOW it will be clear- no new tumours, but I'm just as scared as he is.he's stuck there alone- getting his MRI right now. He's meeting the Dr in about an hour- I will be put on speakerphone. It's not the same at all as being able to hold his hand through this.