Well, I made it through the security and background checks, and got the call last night from my temp agency.
I got the confirmation from HR early this morning.
I go back to work, full-time (albeit as an at-will contractor for now) on Monday.
I am on the road back to financial independence.
I will be helping people in the health-insurance industry.
Yeah, I know. But it is in a good way this time.
I am scared, nervous, and excited.
I want them to want me- to have a long steady job. This place could even help lead to a career- they love to promote from within the company.
I have a commute of about 10 mins on the light rail and another 10 walking from my home to the LR stop. No worries about traffic, or parking for me in this case- which for now I am happy about. A month long metro pass is about the cost of a month of car insurance for me- but no gas, or constant working on my 17 year old (non working right now) SUV.
I am working to get myself to a better place, in a lot of ways.
It is a lot, but I think knowing I am doing good for other people who need help, who need the medical side of their life to be easier, will make me happy(er?).
At the least, for about 9 hours a day I hope to not feel quite so sad, so depressed.
It helps to have goals.
I still miss him. In different ways.
But I am trying hard to expand myself instead of withdrawing from the world. It hurts and it is not easy, but I feel it is something I have to do.