Short Takes IX

Having a lot of memories and feels today/tonight. Mostly sad memories.
Flashbacks. Who he was, who the cancer made him into.

I wish my heart did not hurt like this. I wish my best friend was here to give me a hug. I wish I could be held by my husband, the person who loved me more deeply than any other and have him tell me it will be alright.
I wish it did not feel like half of my heart, my life, my desire to live was gone.

I'm grieving tonight and so so sad my husband is dead.